torsdag 15. mars 2018

I close my eyes
and there you are
I can smell you
I can hear you
I can sense your touch
on my skin
there isn´t a moment
without you

yet you´re not here
with me
you are somewhere else
with someone else
another life
parallel to mine
I don´t mind
I know someone will love me the exact amount I should be loved
but in my minds eye
I wish it was you
I´m sorry
its not

never was

you draw me in
you´ve shown me things
I never thought I´d see
or feel
but baby its not us
it never was
the wear and tear
it got to us
it bit into us
it made us
into that thing
we never wanted to be
and I think 
its time we realized
that its not us
it never was


fredag 9. mars 2018

about

holding on
is about letting go
leaving
is about entering
keeping
is about existing
kissing
is about being kissed
writing
is about thinking
talking
is about feeling
creating
is about opening up
feeling
is about knowing
or not knowing
hearing
is about listening
or silence
smelling
is about sensing
running
is about getting somewhere
walking
is about experiencing
waiting
is about patience
singing
is about channeling
about about about
a b out
ab o ut
keeping
is about storing
sleeping
is about cleansing
dreaming
is about escaping
loving
is about letting go
and taking in
holding on
is about letting go

closer

Pull me in
a little closer
so I can smell your skin
so I can caress it
feel the little hairs
your little hairs
those that will grow and fall off
for what am I
but a vessel for you
to express your love
and anger
and regret
and fear
and pain
through and through

it is I who will listen to your secrets
and hide them for you
it is I who will let you know
when you have overstepped your boundaries
not my boundaries
but everyone else´s
it is I who will be asked
to love you unconditonally
no questions asked
maybe even no strings attached
except
the one
string
tying me to you

love is patient and love is kind
but it is not only that
it is also vicious
and unforgiving
and even though it might take you places
you never thought you´d go
maybe some of those places
are ones that you don´t want to see
are places that make you feel things you didn´t need to feel
or want
so I ask you
to pull me in
a little closer
let me smell your skin
let me caress it
but please let me exist
the way I want to
be the person I should be
and not the one you want
and if not..
the string will break
and you will be left with no vessel
no emotional harness
no safety net
and me..

maybe I will be better

mandag 5. mars 2018

arachni

i am a spider
and that´s not an easy thing for me to admit
because I actually loathe spiders
or I fear them
not sure which of the two is more accurate

something about them makes me shiver
I don´t know if it its because they´re silent
and they sneak up on you without any warning
or if its the fact that you´re never sure
if they have venom
you don´t know if the one staring at you
doing the slow walk
is lethal

nonetheless I have decided I am a spider
because I read somewhere that it´s good to face your fears
that it leaves you with a sense of reward
so I´m calling myself a spider
even though I wouldn´t know the first thing about being a spider
but I don´t think it can be so complicated to have
tens of eyes
and tens of legs